Updated: Mar 25, 2020
I've had many friends point out to me that since college my life has been in a constant state of change. Those friends would be correct. After I graduated college I got married, moved to Colorado, tried to work for a ministry but didn't get fundraised, moved back to Ohio, moved houses, job changes and even more. I guess you could say I've become accustom to this type of life. I would even dare to say I expect it at this point.
I've learned to take joy in the small consistencies of my day to day jobs, friendships, my home which we've been in for almost a year and half now and other small but important things. I would have never guessed that infertility would be one of the consistencies. In an earlier blog, I wrote about my infertility journey. If you haven't read it or want to hear my story please check it out!
While my husband and I may be infertile and that most likely won't change, adoption is a scary unknown and something that can change in an instant and change again the next. While we feel confident that we will become parents through adoption, we have no idea what that really will look like for us. We don't know if we will be matched with a brith mom before the baby is due or if we will get a call one morning saying a baby was born and they are ours. These thoughts are terrifying and exciting all at the same time.
Right now, we are in the beginning stages of our home study with our agency. It felt like it took forever just to get here, but I'm learning to enjoy the waiting time in life. Actually, in 6 days is our first home study visit, virtual of course (thanks COVID-19). I'm excited to meet our assessor and get things started. This also means a lot of paperwork and appointments to get things crossed off our check list and get home study approval. This could take anywhere from 3-6 months. My goal is to move this as quickly as we can to get to the even more unknown step of standby (waiting for our babe).
During this time we also are fundraising to help with the adoption. All the unknowns of the adoption process feel big and scary, but this tends to go to the top of my list. My husband and I have prayed and trust fully this is our path to starting a family. With this confidence means we also have to trust that friends, family and even strangers will support us financially along with all the other support they are giving us. Earlier this week we sent out funding letters and I will be posting on social media in a few days to really let everyone in on this journey. I'm excited to see how the Lord will provide and how he will use this to grow our trust and faith in him. (Super cliche but it's true!)
Am I now also going to include a link to our GoFundMe? Yup. Do you have to give? Nope. We covet prayers, thoughts, encouragement just as much.
I plan to update through this blog as much as possible about our adoption and funding, so be on the look out and feel free to subscribe to get updated. Thanks to those who have already been supporting us in all the ways during this time.
It truly means more than we can say.